not down with OPP

the song? it was cool.
cool beat, etc etc.

but in actuality... ain't always cool.
heard a friend was cheatin on a friend.
she should know better and yet she pulls this shit.
he has an idea but still doesn't know.
and she pulls this shit again with another.
and he still has an idea but doesn't know.
and they both have a kid.

not cool.
he works hard.
not right.

this is saddening.

the last smile that i fake

Sucker Punch
Artist: Bowling For Soup
Album: Let's Do It For Johnny


Here she comes again with another boyfriend,
introduces me and says,
“this is the sweetest guy I’ve ever known.”
Couldn’t say a word. I never say a word.
She wraps her arms around my neck.
“You are the sweetest guy I’ve ever known.”

And I say again “THIS IS THE LAST TIME”

There she goes again she says I’m her best friend
and “were better off this way” she says
cause your still the sweetest guy I’ve ever known.
Her smell stays on my shirt, I can’t say a word
can’t swallow this lump inside my neck
cause you’re still the sweetest girl I’ve ever known.

And I say again “THIS IS THE LAST TIME”

[chorus]
When you left before I didn’t care too much
Cause I just wished you’d go away
And I see you now and it’s just too much
Takes my breath away ... Just like a suckerpunch

Here she comes again with another boyfriend,
introduces me and says,
“this is the sweetest guy I’ve ever known.”
Couldn’t say a word. I never say a word.
She wraps her arms around my neck.
“You are the sweetest guy I’ve ever known.”

And I say again ......
And I said before.....
And I say once more “THIS IS THE LAST TIME”

[chorus]
When you left before I didn’t care too much
Cause I just wished you’d go away
And I see you now and it’s just too much
Takes my breath away ... Just like a suckerpunch

sleep working

ok, so... i don't sleep at work...even with all the lack of sleep i have. no idea. how do i do it? i've been asked several times. i don't know. someone...a friend, said when i do that, a part of my soul dies. hmm... well, that's another story. as it is... today was a pretty cool day. t-shirt and jeans sort of day. unlike yesterday's tie and shirt day, i guess. not really too much to b-log about. aside from the inservice we attended.

sleep working. well, it was during an in-service meeting. sleep meeting. how weird. but oh so true. maybe if i -did- get to go to Sonic, i'd have stayed up 100% instead of the 95% while there.

hmm. finally got one piece of paperwork out of the way. it'd been an issue with me and a few others why it was even needed, but heh...it's all done. all finished, so ha ha ha (trans: Ja Ja ja!).

what else... eh. got a haircut. much shorter than earlier, but i still have highlights present. hrm. prolly by next month this time, no more highlights.

class was short tonight. long enough to get a syllabus and hear the instructor tell us several times that she did not really have much time to talk with us i.e. before or after class, so... yeah... it's gonna one of those classes...just do the work and get through the semester. i took a look at the other class, the internet one... shit, that fucker is complicated. took a while just to frickin get my account set up, now i have to figure out which are the practice quizzes and which are the ones that actually count. man, this semster's gonna be blah.

However... in the classroom class? there were a few cute girls...and not all of them were married... and there's a really nice ratio of 3 or 4 guys to 15 give or take a few girls. ah well. one can dream.

that's about it.

In addition to

ok....so apparently, Smiley said I forgot to mention this for last night....

so yeah, yesterday, we were cleaning out the fridge before getting it moved to the office... darn thing had two big ass bags of beans. weird, i know, wtf did the darn thing have two big ass bags of beans? i do not know. well, the bags were placed on the carts. the carts were moved...
and then... we spilled the beans.

literally.

so yeah. there ya have it. spilled beans.

it just happens that way

today was an ok day.
work wasn't too shabby. went to work, wore a long-sleeved shirt and a tie, and it was all good. the lab looks so much cleaner. Hails and Smiley kick much ass. The usual typing and signing ensued for the day, and more drawings to be done. Reviewed stuff, etc etc.

It also poured rain like a mofo. I mean,...not really heavy duty, but it did get torrential at some points. Prolly won't have to water the lawn for two days or so.

lunch was cool. went to jason's deli and about half of us got the chicken panini. and then followed by ice cream. Didn't go to Amy's ice cream after work, but one of these days i guess. i'm curious what the place holds. and i'm told really good ice cream. hmm... i've got flavors picked out as it is, just wondering if they'll have them on hand at that specific instant.

fall semester starts on tuesday for me, although it actually started last week. it'll be fun. i'm hoping. :) can't almost wait, really.

what else happened? not much else... not really. Pink Tiger would laugh. I put out my black light and turned on some songs....dance party. heh heh. ah well.

it was a cool day...and it just happened that way.

Both Sides of Midnight

Both Sides of Midnight.
Where Yesterday meets Tomorrow today.

20/20 hindsight with an unknowing look.

Midnight holds so much promise.
What that promise is, you don't find out til later.
And by then, you're curious to what the next will bring.

Bored but drawing

Was bored today
and didn't feel like readin The Historian at the time
so I drew a picture.

so yeah. like...here's that picture.
pencil and blue paint.

Currently listening to...

a hella lot of songs i've collected through the years...
right now, acoustic Smashing Pumpkins.

after this, a lil bit of Stone Temple Pilots, followed by techno dance remixes of various songs... ending with some selections from Frou Frou.

yis.

Fear and Prayers for New Orleans

I just got back from church, fixing lunch, and reading online and watching the updates on Hurricane Katrina. What had seemed like a few days ago of a Tropical Storm that became a Hurricane, killing a few people in Florida, it has become a monster in the Gulf. I literally fear for the people affected and soon to be affected of this storm. Just a few minutes ago, its sustained winds were 184 mph with a pressure of 902mB. It's not showing much signs of weakening, but is actually growing. Its eye is currently 29 miles wide. Suddenly the term "there's no stopping what can't be stopped" is here in our backyard, and all we on the safer side can do is pray for those in Katrina's path, and be prepared to help out in any which way we can.

http://redcross.org/

To put it in perspective,
Galveston was hit by a category 4 in 1900. Of cource, the city did not have a seawall at the time, and no one took heed of the weatherman's predictions. Many people were killed and the town was wiped out. It's pressure was 936 mB.

Hugo (1989) was a Cat. 4 at 934mB, Andrew (1992) was a Cat. 5 at 922mB, Camille (1969) was a Cat 5 at 909mB, and the Labor Day Hurricane of 1935 was a Cat.5 with 892mB. Andrew was at the time the costliest at $26,500,000,000 of damage.

This storm is stronger than Hurricane Camille, the devastating storm that hit New Orleans in 1969. Camille killed 256 people after it slammed ashore with winds at over 200 miles per hour. Thousands of people were left homeless all along the shore and far inland.

Only three Cat. 5 storms have ever hit the United States:
The unnamed Labor Day hurricane of 1935;
Hurricane Camille in 1969; and
Hurricane Andrew in 1992.

Katrina might also disrupt the nation’s oil supply, as Nagin said nearly one-third of the nation’s oil moves through the area. He added that at least 1,500 National Guard troops are available, to deploy and assist with cleanup efforts after the storm moves through the area.


Category Five Hurricane:
Winds greater than 155 mph (135 kt or 249 km/hr). Storm surge generally greater than 18 ft above normal. Complete roof failure on many residences and industrial buildings. Some complete building failures with small utility buildings blown over or away. All shrubs, trees, and signs blown down. Complete destruction of mobile homes. Severe and extensive window and door damage. Low-lying escape routes are cut by rising water 3-5 hours before arrival of the center of the hurricane. Major damage to lower floors of all structures located less than 15 ft above sea level and within 500 yards of the shoreline. Massive evacuation of residential areas on low ground within 5-10 miles (8-16 km) of the shoreline may be required. Only 3 Category Five Hurricanes have made landfall in the United States since records began: The Labor Day Hurricane of 1935, Hurricane Camille (1969), and Hurricane Andrew in August, 1992. The 1935 Labor Day Hurricane struck the Florida Keys with a minimum pressure of 892 mb--the lowest pressure ever observed in the United States. Hurricane Camille struck the Mississippi Gulf Coast causing a 25-foot storm surge, which inundated Pass Christian. Hurricane Andrew of 1992 made landfall over southern Miami-Dade County, Florida causing 26.5 billion dollars in losses--the costliest hurricane on record. In addition, Hurricane Gilbert of 1988 was a Category Five hurricane at peak intensity and is the strongest Atlantic tropical cyclone on record with a minimum pressure of 888 mb.

An Actual Post

"What Did I Did?"

Well...today... woke up late. I usually catch up on sleep on the weekends, unless there's some specific "I need to wake up early" reason for a Saturday... which is usually reserved for working a MER shift, or going out with my woman. hah hah hah. Well, seeing as I have neither of these, i slept in.

Woke up, took a shower, got ready, and went with the folks to check out the Home and Interior Show at the Reliant Center. Not too shabby, there wasa good crowd there. Mom and Dad teamed up walking up and down the 'aisles', i guess you can call them, and i just walked around by myself, looking for anything interesting. Usually, it's not ALL just "how to clean your house", or Home Improvement stuff...and here, they also had some art items, etc etc.

Saw a few paintings that were really cool, and i'm actually itching to start painting and drawing again. It's been too long. I've got a woodburning project on hold...and not gonna finish it for another two weeks when i finally get an urge to just finish it up...shouldn't take too long...except for the fact that i stabbed myself with scissors. Don't laugh (too hard), and don't ask.

Finally walked from wall to wall of the building and decided to catch up with the 'rents. i'd told Ma to go on a lil shoppin spree, so she found a necklace, matching earrings, and a chain to go with them, and they match this hair clip she had, so that was cool. Also picked up a plant for my cousin Jo.

After the Home show, went and saw my cuz and her roommate, helped fix their place up a lil bit, hung up their paintings that they had bought, fixed a few things in their place, and yeah, stabbed myself with scissors... went out for dinner at a local Flip food place, then went back, chatted and fixed their place up a lil bit more, then headed for home.

It was raining and thundering and havin' a big lightning display a lil bit ago. Not much else in this highly exciting, unpredictable life. CinCity mentioned food places, and it hit me...I have to ask her but I'm wondering if one of the places she mentioned was close to this burrito place...

That and it's 2am, i'm thinking of ice cream. well, yeah... i figured when my cuz and her roommate were free, we'd all go out for ice cream. And last night, Cin also talked about ice cream. and earlier, my friend Les mentioned mint chocolate chip. Hrm.

and read a lil of The Historian again... a lil every night... not as quick a read at HP #6, but ah well.

Weird Quiz - I'm goin' to hell

So, I was awake and just reading stuff and I saw this quiz... so I figured, what the heck... I took it and got a 7th level rating, and i thought... dude...hold up. I can't be THAT bad... so i revisited the quiz and thought about the answers, and got a reduced sentence of a 2nd level rating. Hrm. Note to self... need to do even more good, or pray for a miracle.

The wretched King Minos has decided your fate. His tale wraps around his body 2 times. The sweet light no longer strikes against your eyes. Your shade has been banished to... the Second Level of Hell!

Second Level of Hell

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

You have come to a place mute of all light, where the wind bellows as the sea does in a tempest. This is the realm where the lustful spend eternity. Here, sinners are blown around endlessly by the unforgiving winds of unquenchable desire as punishment for their transgressions. The infernal hurricane that never rests hurtles the spirits onward in its rapine, whirling them round, and smiting, it molests them. You have betrayed reason at the behest of your appetite for pleasure, and so here you are doomed to remain. Cleopatra and Helen of Troy are two that share in your fate.

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Politically Correct Asian

PORITICARRY COLLECT ASIAN
Generally raised in a Western society and as such, is highly influenced by Western ideals of political correctness. Quick to judge others about judging others based on skin colour.

Personal Mantra:
"I do not make distinctions regarding race. This is a bad thing to do."

Buzzwords/ Phrases:
"eracism", "we all bleed the same colour", "let's all get along", "perpetuating stereotypes"

Social Interactions:
Hangs out mostly with other Politically Correct Asians. Has a few token White friends. Makes a point to not notice race.

Thoughts on Lucy Liu:
"She perpetuates the dragon lady stereotype."

The Asian FOB

Ok, before I get started... if you didn't ever know... man, get off. heh. kididng.

FOB,
how can I explain it,
i'll take you frame by frame it,
to have all y'all jumpin' shout and sayin it...
Fresh Off the Boat

ASIAN FOB
Fresh Off the Boat. Usually spent formative years in an Asian society. Holds onto Asian values and attitudes. Limited influence by Western attitudes (except for shopping).

Personal Mantra:
"Everything Asian is far superior to everything Western."

Buzzwords/ Phrases:
"Are you (insert nationality here)?" "How come you don't speak (insert Asian language here)?"

Social Interactions:
Friends are all Asian. Has a "stick-together" mentality. Will hang out with someone solely because they're Asian even if they don't really like them

Thoughts on Lucy Liu:
"I secretly admire her, but publicly look down on her because she is not truly Asian."

Banana - Coconut Asian

BANANA / COCONUT
Yellow/brown on the outside, white on the inside. Generally raised in a Western society, but has experienced the quirks of being raised Asian. Does not deny heritage.

Personal Mantra:
"I used to wish I was White, but I'm mature and grown up now. I have the best of both worlds."

Buzzwords/ Phrases:
"It's ok when I make (insert nationality here) jokes because I'm (insert nationality here)."

Social Interactions:
Has friends who are Asian and friends who are not. However, is always aware of the racial dynamics of the group.

Thoughts on Lucy Liu:
"I heard she's a bitch."
OR "Way to go! Another Asian in mainstream media."

The Asian in Denial

ASIAN IN DENIAL
Usually grew up in a predominantly White neighbourhood. Pretends to be White. Does not acknowledge that they are Asian.

Personal Mantra:
"I am White. I am White. I am White."

Buzzwords/ Phrases:
"If they live here, they should speak the language." "My friends think I'm more White than they are."

Social Interactions:
Will only hang out with White people. Avoids other Asians like the plague. May talk to other Asians in Denial, but will never be caught dead in a group of Asians.

Thoughts on Lucy Liu:
"I think she sucks. I prefer Calista Flockheart."

The Angry Asian

ANGRY ASIAN
Very angry about how Asians are viewed by Western society. Has big chip on shoulder and goes on and on about "Asian pride" and "elevating our race".

Personal Mantra:
"If you don't see things my way, you are anti-Asian, you f**king a**hole!"

Buzzwords/ Phrases:
"Asian pride", "f**k you", "you dumb sh*t", (any grammatically incorrect expletives)

Social Interactions:
Hangs out only with other Asians in a big group. Has a confrontational attitude and looks for racism in every gesture.

Thoughts on Lucy Liu:
"She's a sell-out."

What Kind of Asian AM I?

So yeah...like...ok...
I've often been asked in the past...
"Are ya chi-nese or jap-anese?"

And no, i sure as hell didn't answer "i laotian".

I've been called a Flip, a FOB, and even Asian Redneck by at least four different people... some from the state of Tennessee. Been called out as having soul by two big black people in New Orleans...so what hella kinda asian am I? Well... heh heh heh... so there's this quiz... and here are the results:



I'm anything BUT a politically correct asian... and that's fine with me.

Hopefully, that answers the question. I'm a partially angry, in-denial, banana/coconut FOB that's politically incorrect. Heh heh.

i like it when you do that right thurr-sday

work.
they don't call it that for nothing.
today was appropriately a shirt and jeans day, well...it's 2am now, so yesterday... moved stuff out of the lab, and now the room looks so much bigger. more stuff to do tomorrow, starting off with a meeting. hope that one goes well. on another note... i had issues on something, and someone thought it was personal. i don't understand why. i'd tried to make my point clear, but i guess the fact that i felt that item should not have taken THIS long to finish was showing. can't help it. something like that SHOULDN'T. it's under my direct watchful eyes now, so hopefully it will not be as bad from here out.

went to the mall for lunch with Hailz. had a grilled chikken sammich with fries and the drink combo, but the main purpose was to pick up some of the figs from Sin City Wave/Series 2. They've been showing on eBay, but they'd been charging a lot for them, not to mention the shipping. Other places had been selling them for normal, but again, the shipping was just blah. anyways, i got them for really good prices, and prettymuch picked up the ones i'd wanted, especially the two of Miho. mmMmm...yes. Miho.

oh yeah...where was i? after lunch...paperwork, reviews, etc etc. fun fun, not complaining, but i also had a final to take tonight...and that class started at 5:45. so yeah... didn't leave work til 6:10... called the school saying that i will be there to take the test...just running really late. understatement. we covered the exam material in 3 classes. the last coverage was last thursday. was supposed to take the test on tuesday (we had an option of tues. or thurs.) but, i wanted to say hi to my Cuz so thurs... which meant... didn't study on Monday or Tuesday... Weds? nope..didn't study then either. Thurs? day of exam...h'yeah..so got to the school, went over the notes for 15 mins, then went in to take the exam. did what i could in about 30 or so minutes... and the instructor graded the exam and also let me know what i made in the class. i had done some calculations and apparently all i needed to pass with an A was to make a 50-something...but still.

Awesome thing is, i actually made a 94 on the test, and a 98 for the class... so yay for A.

said hey with BabyG for a few, and then got home. got dinner sorta prepped, then said hey with Cin City. Nothing on ebay, but i saw a lot of cool sunsets and buildings and stuff.

oh yeah...i've said i hated match.com a few times, but last night/weds, actually went ahead and deleted accts from match and yahoo. ah well.

other than that... that's about it. right now, i reckon i'm gonna up and sleep cuz it'll be a way early day in a few hours. :) but as Derelique would say, What's fer lunch?

I'm okay with being unimpressive. I sleep better. - 2005

1 year and 733 posts later....

Dear B-log,

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday dear b-log,
happy birthday to you.

and many more.

last year, i dunno how or why but i started this darndest thing. saw Garden State, which was pretty cool, and labeled the first post after a quote from the film...

"I'm okay with being unimpressive. I sleep better. "

a year later... heh, i still like the quote. not that i'm into settling for being unimpressive, but just that i've come to an acceptance of terms. and i'll leave it at that.

Today was a cooler day at work. Granted, Hailz got a lot of stuff done in the lab and i helped out..but i swear...i shoulda worn jeans and a t-shirt instead of decent pants and a long-sleeved shirt...that was a lil rolled up anyways. That fashion statement brought to you by Pepsi with lime. heh. Aside from the lab, got a couple of other things done so it didn't feel as blah...although lunch was not until about 3:45 or 4pm today. not too shabby though.

Today was also Mom's bday, so we all had a pretty nice and quiet night at home.

Chatted with BabyG earlier, and then with CinCity. She's right... I need to make friends with penguins so they can log onto the blog from Antarctica so I can collect all the continents. Heh... hrm. wild. Penguins are cool. Still haven't seen the Penguin movie... shoot, i -STILL- haven't seen Batman, Fantastic Four, Stealth, or any of the movies I'd been wanting to see. blah. But, I was told that the penguin movie was a good date movie.
hmm. how rare. a penguin chic flic movie? hmm... hee hee.

ah well. ok...that's all for now.

Disarmed with a smile

went to work today.
same old shit with the lab clean-up.
Smiley and Hails are the only two keeping me sane right now.
Pink Tiger is keeping me sane too, I reckon.

the good news is, Hailz is on top of things, and stuff's actually getting done. Smiley's helpin' too.

lately, and i'll be plain and simply honest, i really feel empty at work. as in, am i doing anything? i mean, shit... i used to do projects and it was all gravy. but now, attend a few meetings, deal with paperwork to get the lab cleaned out...that just doesn't seem to want to get cleaned out...must be a cursed lab... and it's not that i don't care. the fact that inside, i do and that it's just not going as fast as i would expect is just frustrating. i've got four folks with me, plus Smiley, and they're all great people, but i wonder if i'm even any help to them. the last time i felt a lil shitty like this regarding work was 2 years ago, i think, when every time i got to work, something new...well, several things new would spring up as an issue that by the time those get put out, more spring up so it's like...forgetting what ya had to do in the first place.

i mean, sure... got some stuff moved out to where it was supposed to go, met with several people in a meeting or so, filled out forms here and there, finished a simple drawing and got it approved in the system in less than a day, answered a few questions, reviewed stuff...and at the end of the day, even though I did do some stuff, i feel like... what the fuck did i do today? don't get me wrong, i'm not complaining about my job, it's just stating the fact that it's like... ok, time's up, end of the day...what got done? something? anything? i just don't 'feel' it...even if something, anything did get done. it's like... i'm numb.

skipped out on my test tonight and opted to take it on Thursday.
that's about the brunt of it regarding classes. after that exam, end of that class.
but one class started this week, and another will start next week.

after work? main reason why i skipped on class tonight was cuz it's my cousin's birthday. she got out of class early, so i called and checked to see she was available, so i picked up a chocolate birthday cake and took it to her place and beteen her, me, and her roommate, we just had a lil birthday cake and ice cream and stuff. traffic going to her place wasn't too bad, but the other direction had an accident...glad it cleared up by the time i was heading back.

picked up some flowers and a card for Mom as well. Already had her gift picked out...her birthday's tomorrow. prolly gonna go bake a cake tomorrow too after work.

lunch was pretty cool today. Player and Bro, along with Skip and CinCity all went to B-Dubs. Actually got our food and got back to work in time (sorta) for the 1 o'clock mtg. But as Player and Bro found out... the strawberry whatever from jamba juice sucked.

so after i got home, ate dinner, did another shirt design, and right now, just chillin. nothing really on ebay i think, but i didn't really check much. email was fun. "[ ] received your wink and reviewed your profile, but is not interested." Eh. as we say at work, this is becoming, if not already, the nominal condition. the drive back from Cuz's, radio off (after listening to the pre-game for the Astros tonight) was just one of those nice long drives home to just sit, drive, and think.

and think.

and think some more.

and what i'd give to be disarmed by a smile.

OCC - Shuttle Tribute Bike - 003

From:


To:


Because:


And that's the bottom line!!!

OCC - Shuttle Tribute Bike - 002

Tee hee hee... Pauly Sr, version 2.0
Brought to you by Bud Light, the proud sponsor of the Houston Texans,
and this pose in front of the OCC trailer.


Fat tire...me...and Gary, the president of the group that made this possible.


oh Hell yeah! Vroom THIS!


cRang cRang cRang went the trorrey...
(TRANS: clang clang clang went the trolley)



Me and the bike...
the bike and me...
no matter how loud you revved it up...
'twas meant to be...
the bike goes Vroom vroom really loud...
tee hee hee hee
so happy together!

you know you're singing along. ha ha ha ha.
gotcha. one more time...

Bum and the bike...
the bike and Bum...
whenever you would rev it up...
the bike went Vroom
the bike goes Vroom vroom vroom out loud...
tee hee hee hee
so happy together!

OCC - Shuttle Tribute Bike - 001

From the front...


Closeup of the side...



Boosters go...


To the side...


heh heh...the cockpit...heh heh
so yeah... another closeup

Shuttle Tribute Bike - OCC

Black & White pic of the Orange County Choppers Shuttle Tribute Bike to also commemorate our Return to Flight...next to the OCC Truck and Trailer

Making Ends Meet

Ok... so ... I was bored... and um...
hee hee... Don't believe me?

Try HERE.

Here's one for Pepe as well.

Almost a year

So it hit me just now...
I've had this blog for a year...almost.

Holy shit!

And it's got 720+ posts. almost two posts a day average.

And here I thought, eh, I'll start one... and then maybe forget about it in a little bit. Shoot, I have no idea how many people actually read this darned thing. Maybe a handful that actually read it, and the rest are just ...well...they end up here by mistake or by chance, or by curiousity.

for me?
i do the EPOs just to entertain, but the rest...mainly just to vent or to pass the time.
ah well. so yeah...let's see if it'll last another year.

Virtual Insanity on a Sunday Afternoon

Ok, so it's more of evening, but really...
Here I am, cleaning my room, checking ebay, and whatever else, and for some reason, I hear some songs fromn the past...

Jamiroquai's Virtual Insanity and STP's Interstate Love Song.

Hmm. how rare. Both cool songs.

ok, back to fixin and stuff.

Crawling

I don't know why I like Linkin Park,
and I don't know why I like this song, either.
Maybe I do, but I just can't express
the internalization of what it really means to me.
In any case, I like this song.

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling, I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in

(without a sense of confidence
and I'm convinced
that there's just too much pressure to take)

I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...
To find myself again
My walls are closing in


(without a sense of confidence
and I'm convinced
that there's just too much pressure to take)

I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

evolution

yep.

Drunk Bum

This would be an EPO, but i'm lazy and have to wake up in *looks at clock* 2 and a half hours... so...

Today at lunch, it was mentioned that Anastacia hasn't been to a Rock the Dock all summer... and that I hadn't been either. Mainly because of just schedules and stuff, classes and whatnot. And then I said that it was ok since last yar, I'd been to enough that it could carry over to this year, and I'd still be ok. Fuzzy logic.. just nod your head. That and I added that with all the crown and coke with cherries i've had, along with bud lights, shiner bocks, and chocolate martinis (not all at once, of course)... it was ok.

And then Jim said that would be a sight to see...a drunk Bum.

And then Anastacia added that both she and Brian have seen me drunk at Rock the Dock. I wouldn't say i was drunk... i was just a lil tipsy. I was coherent... etc etc... *smirk*

So Jim looked at Brian and asked, so... what is Drunk Bum like?

The response?

Brian said, "You know... there really wasn't much of a difference." That's scary. heh heh. Hrm. so... there you have it. I get giggly, still ADHD'd...etc.

To be honest? I think the last real time I was drunk, where i can't even call it tipsy... was 1998, November, when I dunked my ring. heh. that's what i get for drinking a pitcher of 13% alcohol in 42 seconds. :)

Sinfest: Figured it out

It all makes sense now.

Sinfest: Revenge of the Pimp

Tatsuya kicks ass.

day in the life of aug 19 05

today... i could have been disarmed by a smile
work was ok. got the lab cleaned out. well... ok, it was really all cuz of H, and Smiley... but still. sent Eric off after a lunch. His internship ended so he's going back to school. Found out my grade from the class I worried more over this summer semester than the other class. Yeah, the instructor told me I got an A last night, but until I saw it posted...it's like... um...

so yeah, i checked the page today and sure 'nuff, there it was. So, i did a lil soccer goal dance at work. luckily, they're used to me that they didn't even think twice what was wrong with the weirdo.

but when you see the soccer dance and hear a doppler rendtion of Aaaaaaaaaaa instead of Gooooooooooooal.... you might kinda haf'ta wonder.

Checked eBay, put a bid on something, and luckily won it just a few mins ago.

that was the good.

The bad:
earlier, i found out that a family friend's husband had finally passed away. He was really good, quiet, and yet young, by standards. this year's just been full of these. my heart goes out to their family.

The cool:
eh. stuff. silly, but eh. hrm. yeah.

it was an ok day today.

Gimme just one reason

and i'll change my mind about match.com.

but as it is, it's evil.
granted, i'm a cheap bastard that won't pay unless i even get a hint that someone might be remotely interested... and in person, that unforetunately doesn't take much...hrm... shit, did i just admit to being easy? heh, ok... so anyways...

i get fairly daily emails where they say "Hey, we've found you some matches". Typically, half of them are the same matches, but they just rotate them around. They add a few new ones here and there, now and then. As it is, they tell you how far away these folks are, and how much they match you, percentagewise. Like.. yeah... you have a better chance with an 84% match than a 49% match. i.e. will she look at me funny or slap the mocha tan off of me.

so ok, there was one... of many... a 60% match. woo-hoo. what's the person say and looking for?
I'm a silly, sweet king of girl who likes to have fun. I love to try new things and meet new people. I'm looking for someone to make me smile, someone who will sing loudly and dance with me (even if we both look goofy!), someone who will laugh with me while watching my cheesy TV shows and movies, someone who will enjoy going for walks in the evening with me and my dog, and someone who will take me out for ice cream.

The extra details they list after were generic...everything said "any".

i can try to make someone smile... sing loudly and dance even if it looks goofy, laugh and watch cheesy tv shows (even though I haven't been able to watch much tv), have no issues with walks, and Lord knows I love going out for ice cream. even currently in the same industry as far as work.

ah well. :)

and some more stuff

I like the Astros. win or lose, i like the Astros.
I also liked Brandi Chastain from soccer...




Just imagine, what if, they finally capture him...



Texas Football. Hook 'Em. Gig 'Em.

The Law ... 2 fast 2 furious

1/18 scale of TX State Trooper... rollin' in a 5 point 0



1:18 State Troopers for:
New York, Georgia, Michigan, Texas, California, and Florida




2 fast
2 furious


yeah, deep inside, i'm a ricer at heart

Racin Collections

Here's one of Sr.



Here's one for Jr. Born-On Dates for '04 and '05



And another...
Budweisers '00, '02, '03, '04, and '05. '99 was on the previous pic,
and they never made one for '01.



Signed by Tony Stewart and Dale Jr.



The garage.

In Love With Ms Aoki

Ok...so tonight...couldn't sleep...and so I watched Sin City. Good movie, had some pretty good violence in it, but it also had Jessica Alba. mmMmmm....Jessica Alba....Yeah, that -was- what got me interested, aside from the fact that I already previously owned a Deathrow Marv figure sitting on an electric chair...hmm...tempted to bring that back to work again heh heh heh....ok, i digress again... where were we? Ah yes...Jessica Alba.... heh. ok, so....

anyways, so yeah...Sin City at midnight... there was hackin' and slashin' and women...and there...she was...Miho... Devon Aoki... Now, I'd seen her originally in 2 Fast 2 Furious, and I was like...hey, how're YOU doin'? But that was a while back ago. Ah... the movie rekindled it all. *lol*

ok...so....another name to add to my "in love with" list... Devon Aoki. Well, she was already there, so... hmm.

Yes. Chic with a killer look and nice set of blades. ah, i can dream...

Some more pics I took

Welcome Home, 114

Just some cool pics I took

Jin-Roh Pics

And here's a pic of the Jin-Roh figures.
based on the movie Stray Dog and the anime Jin-Roh...
Although there are other versions out there (the Japanese version has light-up red eyes), these two are pretty cool. On one of them, the bullets are all actually made of diecast metal.

2005 work in progress

2005... well, we're still in it, so... :)

so far, it's been a pretty cool year.
a month from now, I'll be at the same career for 5 yrs now.

Man, that is something, to me at least.
New friends made, experiences shared.

way cool.

2004

2004. This yr was pretty cool.
10th yr High School reunion. Didn't go. heh. I'm a snob. *shrug* just didn't really feel it. I'd rather catch up with people I really wanted to versus the ones who still had their own clique that a number of us were never good enough for then.

Worked on a project with Lee, and it was cool enough that they awarded our group with a number of group awards, and gave me the privilege of being Employee of the Month for Lockheed Martin's SEAT Contract.

Although I'd met Pink Tiger earlier when she was still a co-op, it wasn't until this year that we became friends. Her, Big Ern, Pepe, and a cast of several others made this year really awesome. Work sent me to Switzerland for business, and it was a really cool experience.

A few weeks later, saw Vienna Teng before my birthday. I've got a list of Taiwanese women who I think are really cool and cute. Vienna is on that list. Tee hee.

A week after that, went to Greece and a few other parts of Europe for my 28th birthday. Just can't get any better than this.

and that for the most part, was 2004.

2003

2003.
The previous year, we went to see Alaska via Royal Caribbean. That was an awesome adventure. But 2003? it was a nice quiet year... made more friends, but took another hiatus from school, trying to figure out what I really wanted to do. But, it was still a pretty cool year.

2002

2002.
Another year of work, and was back in school as well.
I'd taken a break from 2000-2001, but started up again in the Fall of 2001.

One particular memory... Moby had come to visit the worksite, and I'll be honest and say I only know a few Moby songs. So, after his visit and speech, he stayed for a meet-and-greet, which I'll have to say, was a really generous stay. Of the 200+ who saw him, a good 100+ stayed after, and he stayed behind to say hi, sign autographs, and take pictures with everyone.

"Moby, will you sign my picture?"
"Moby, will you sign my shirt?"
"Moby will you sign my CD?"
"Moby, will you sign my CD liner?"

Ah, he heard those lines SO many times... when he got to me, he didn't expect what I was gonna say... I had brough two baseballs for him to sign.

"Moby, will you sign my balls?"

Man, that expression was priceless. He was cool, signed both baseballs, and even took a picture with me. Pretty darn spiffy.