Vicarious

what happens when you get so used to something one way, and you fear it will never change, but should it ever change, wonder if you'd do a decent enough job adapting...

Hung said it best. Actually, he's the only one to say it.
I'd take a given scenario and go through every possible outcome in my head,
and consider the likelihood of each outcome, and sometimes make the decision based on that.

But this is dwelling.

so i will just live vicariously.