lyrics

...Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers...
-Unanswered Prayers, Garth Brooks

i heard this on Friday, just as i was thinking.
Bicks... i swear... you're another voice of conscience that i haven't had since Annie left... and that's saying something. it's a compliment.

i often believe that when the times i just am shit clueless...
and what i want to know or happen or do or whatever...
and i just can't get'r'done.... i look up to heaven and ask, Dude?!?

laugh, eyebrow, whatever...that is my relationship with Heaven.
not so much the prodigal son, but ... i dunno what to call it or me.

anyways... i heard this... i am reminded.
i am reminded.
i don't know everything
i can't possibly
but sometimes, i sure think i do, or want to...
and then Heaven, God.... in His (and any feminazis who say 'Her'... i won't argue, to each our own),
own way... tells me 'Shut Ass, Bum"...with a nice endearing fatherly smile.

sometimes, it's years later, sometimes, it's instantaneous where i think...yep. He's right, and i should just shut ass and listen close. never fails, never will.

and that is my belief.
and i thank God.
not just for knowing what's best for me,
but for putting up with me.